Self Improving
This is like my 20th day of work in a row and I’m so bored with it and hanging out with a two year old. My “best friend” is being her annoying self pretending that she actually likes doing fun things when really she just likes being invited to them to show her older boyfriend that she has friends. Which she doesn’t really. The two year old didn’t nap and so now she is going to be grumpy and defiant. I know I need to look at the positive and I will after I’m through with this rant but I’m just annoyed. And want to be done with work when I want to be which is at seven not seven thirty or any of that bs. And go work out ugh. I’ll just pass the time by planning
Already I have tickets to see neon trees and foster the people this summer, and that’s just June!! I need need to go to a country show. I love Jana Kramer and she has a few FREE shows near me but by near I mean three hours away :/ there’s a music festival in the gorge with miranda Blake and some others I would not mind seeing and the willamette music festival in Oregon too that have some good names including Jana and band perry. I’m scheming, choosing which one/s of my friends would be good for each show.
I’ve decided that I want to “live up” underage drinking while I still can these last three months before I’m 21 since I will never again be able to do just that. And by live up I don’t me get drunk everyday but definitely have some high school-esq experiences with it. For instance doing so in a somewhat public place and around a parent, since I am 20. I am also discussing the idea of having my legal and willing brother buy me a mini collection for the summer. I’m not sure what yet. Easy stuff. I’m not too concerned about hiding it in my room anymore like I was in more recent years. I am definitely entertaining the idea of a fifth of rum, maybe some vodka although I despise it and I’m not sure what else. Maybe wine since I have never gotten swasted on that before.
Sorry if this seems like an immature post, but I’m still young and that justifies it enough for me.
I’m not bored, I’m just at work with almost no freedom to do what I really want. I can work out, watch some tv or read but I just want to see my friends go to a movie or do errands like I need like go to target or workout. If I get off early enough I will go and work out and maybe even go to target afterwards.
I have a twitter that I don’t even use and don’t have Facebook so why is it that I still like reading through random, and I mean random peoples tweets? Maybe it is because I’ve been working so much and need some sort of human connection further than instagram? Or even tumblr which is slightly hard to search through things on my iPhone app. And although I feel guilty about it and stalkerish it does make me a little happier knowing that no one is living a much more exciting life than me. At least I’m making money
Life is too short but it’s not even the length that bothers me but that it has an end to it at all. It’s not even that I am watching this complicated series finale of House or anything like that but it is just overwhelming and strange that though we all think it from time to time it never truly sticks to us at least not the majority of us and we tend to forget, get lazy and expect that we have tons of time left. But we don’t. It is meaningless but not to us during our lives and thats all that matters, to us, during our life.
